On Running (Badly)
The above comic is 100% true and is about more than just running (of course). I realized after I had forced myself to finish it that it’s about my whole process of the last year–the FUCK IT process, the JUST GET IT DONE process. As someone who gets hung up on questions of worth and value, this process has served me extremely well.
Right now it’s time for me to admit that after more than a year and a half of crazy output, I’m in a half-baked phase of comics. I have about 5 unfinished 3 page comics and a slew of others that are nipping at my heels. My daily diary comics are getting harder to do. The truth is I am harder on them. It’s a familiar phase and it had to happen right? The honeymoon easy period of doing them has momentarily left the building. I think I might be in a new phase of comics needing more time and attention. I want to get better and do more detailed work. The output and my impatience at answering every call and idea is affecting the quality (at least in my eyes). This of course could be another bullshit story my lovely ego has whipped up to delay action, but I am craving some time to finish work and send it out. So for the next little stretch, maybe I’ll post something once a week and maybe I won’t. Of course now would be a good time to also remind myself that everything I do here is made up of rules that I make up. No one tells me to stick with them but myself. So I am going to break some rules I’ve made up. I am going to take a lesson from my running “practice” and say it’s okay to go slow. The point is to show up and do it. So that’s what I’m going to do.