HEY! The kind folks at Upworthy asked if they could use my migraine comic as a way to explain the experience of migraines. They also interviewed me about my history with migraines. I KNEW that years of pain must have been good for something! (just kiddn’). Check it out!
So I guess I am on Instagram now. I have resisted joining for so long because frankly I didn’t need another platform to worry about my popularity on. I started to reconsider this stance when it became clear that nearly EVERY artist I love posts their goods there and I got sick of answering why I wasn’t on this BASIC platform. I started to feel like my parents who refused to get an answering machine until well into the 1990’s (actually I think someone bought it for them out of frustration, so they never really gave in). So in a moment of…weakness? boredom? resignation? I caved and have decided to use it as a way to primarily share sketchbook pages.
Sketchbooks are THE thing I am inspired to look at on Instagram–and actually have been among the things that are inspiring me the most in general lately. Some of my favorites are Martha Rich, Mark Todd, and Lauren Weinstein. I just love thinking about all those people drawing out there.
If you’re on there, give me a ring! Also, if you know any good sketchbooks on Instagram, let me know in the comments!
I haven’t been making comics for the last 6 weeks because I’ve been feeling blocked and sort of fried out. This actually happens to me every summer and usually with a break and some watering I can come back to it fresh, but today I realized that while this is mostly true, I’m also in a spiral of negative thinking. Meaning, I actually have ideas, but I’ve been kind of a jerk to them by rejecting and/or ignoring them.
When I started making comics a few years ago, I made a deal with myself: If the idea comes I’ll write it and I’ll finish it. No matter what my brain said, no matter how bad I thought it was, if an idea presented itself I was to act on it and see it to its end. This was because I had spent years GETTING READY to be good enough to do or finish anything. I had learned that this voice, while well-meaning and protective in nature, was actually hobbling me and keeping me from doing the work I dreamed of doing. So that’s what I did day after day through diary comics and then on to longer pieces. Some I had no trouble at all with, some were agony to get through. My “Hey Hey It’s Tina Fey” comic was one that I completed while my brain screamed at me: THIS IS STUPID! THIS IS EMBARRASSING! WHY ARE YOU WASTING YOUR TIME ON THIS? To which I kept responding: I promised to finish it! I promised to finish it! I was sure I had embarrassed the hell out of myself, but then I got it done and I’ve been told by some people that it’s one of their favorites.
I have forgotten this promise from time to time and I have drafts of comics to prove it. Do you know what unfinished drafts of comics lead to? MORE unfinished drafts of comics. I tell my students this: The more you complete things, the more your brain will know you are up to doing more. The minute you give up on a comic or delay finishing a story, your will gives up and it actually gets harder to do anything. Not impossible, just HARDER. I’ve had to claw my way back, start small until the engine runs again. I’ll do this and be so happy until the whole cycle starts again–and it will start again.
Usually when I am “blocked” it’s because I am taking myself too seriously and really need to lighten up and do something fun. Sometimes when I am not working I can catch myself turning away ideas because they aren’t “good” or even worse, they aren’t what I “really want to be doing”. The latter one is a relatively new one and is tricky. I do have some vague idea of something larger (a.k.a more IMPORTANT AND SERIOUS) I’d like to be working on, but it’s not there yet and as much as my ego and impatience would like to ride it into the sunset, the worst thing I can do is rush it. Meanwhile I use the IDEA of this idea to delay acting on more readily available ideas that come to me–and there goes the will and the pages of drafts pile up. Which leads me to another truth I have learned since making comics regularly and that I often forget:
Discipline can create inspiration, but inspiration RARELY creates discipline.
Don’t get me wrong, inspiration is a glorious and wonderful place (I ADORE you inspiration!!) but it’s not to be depended on. At most inspiration is a match or a lighter, but it’s not the flame that keeps the way lit. When I am not working and thinking I need something, anything other than what I have to start, I forget that simply showing up and sticking through the initial shitty protests from the brain in the guise of doubt, shame, and boredom, will almost always give way to something else I hadn’t expected. I am always learning from comics and I never know what they have to teach me until its done.
So today I started on a draft I have promised to complete. My brain is not happy, as it thinks I am either too good for it or I am the worst thing in the world–it can’t decide which. Which brings me to another helpful mantra I use from time to time:
Shut up and do.
I am HUGELY excited to tell you about a comic I have featured today as part of the PEN America Illustrated series. “Dear Friend” was the comic that first appeared in the Rumpus Letters to the Mail Program back in February. Since it’s literally my favorite comic I’ve made so far, I am happy to see it have new life. It’s about road trips and memory and the longer road of time. BIG thanks to Rob Kirby for asking to include it in this beautiful series.
Please go and read it–and think of it as a personal letter to you.
Here’s an old comic to give you an *inkling* of what I woke up to yesterday. It actually was 10 times worse and so I couldn’t make my flight to Toronto. I just emerging from this migraine and am so sad I am not at TCAF! I hear you are nice, Toronto! I hear the comics scene is BEYOND, but alas I’ll have to wait.
If you are there, go see my table mate, Glynnis Fawkes everybody–she’s on the third floor and will be so happy to see you! Bring her a cookie and tell her it’s from me!
My comic “How I Came to Comics” is in the very FINE anthology “My Pace 02” out from Rod+Cone & debuting this weekend at TCAF. They just posted an interview of 5 questions where I get to talk about my past as a songwriter, the creative habit, peer groups, and dream projects. All this and the DREW ME!
Here’s a taste:
1. You were also a singer-songwriter. How does making comics reflect or differ from the process of writing & playing music? Was songwriting as autobiographical?
My songs were very autobiographical–very in the moment and very similar to the comics I am making right now (although my comics have a lot less break ups in them!). One of the reasons I was so drawn to songwriting as a medium was that songs have this powerful emotional shorthand–they don’t have to be specifically about YOU but they can feel like it. In a sense, when a song hits you right, it can feel like the song hears you instead of the other way around. When I stopped being a musician I discovered that this feeling of being “heard” was in so much of the art, books, etc. that I loved–it’s not just songs that can do that. When I started making comics it felt like I was tapping into the same emotional landscape as the songs I wrote. My friend Jennifer Hayden once remarked that my comics read like songs and that made me so happy.
All this being said, it’s probably no surprise that I find making comics very similar to songwriting. When I draw out the panels it feels a lot like putting music down–a rhythmic system to organize the words & story. It works.